Meanwhile, somewhere in another part of the world, Jaejoong was sitting alone in his hotel room thinking about someone. He pictured all the things they did together for the past few days before they got separated because of his fault. He knew that it was impossible to getting her back. The day that he had promised Anne to come back to Tokyo was the day he had to forget about her and moved on. When TVXQ arrived back to Seoul after their visit to Tokyo, their manager called them up and had an urgent meeting. It was then Jaejoong had to make a decision that only he could make. “ Jaejoong sshi, I have something important that I want to discuss with you before you go back. I heard that you are dating someone right now and that she lives in Tokyo. Our management had ordered me to restrict all of you from having intimate affairs and it is one of rules you need to abide. I’m so sorry to have to tell you this, Jaejoong sshi. It’s my duty to take care of you guys as well as reminding you not to break the agreement. I really hope you understand and reconsider your actions.” His manager patted on his shoulder and left him thinking about the matter.
It’s been a week since they had their last meeting before their Asia Tour concert. Apart from their hectic schedules, Jaejoong had to gulp every bit of the bitterness he had in him so that the others would not notice him. He knew he had to make up his mind soon before the tour starts or it will affect him severely. “Is there anything bothering you, Jaejoongie? You seemed to be preoccupied with something. I wonder if it was about Anne. We haven’t heard from Anne since we got back to Seoul. You usually call her every two hours.” Yunho asked sitting next to him after their practice at their studio. “ Nope, everything is not right and I don’t know what else am I supposed to do but to leave Anne for good.” Jaejoong burst out as his body was trembling when he tried to hold back his tears. Yunho was shocked and speechless. He could not bear to watch his best buddy in pain although he knew that the management had found out about this matter. “Jaejoongie, I know your decision had made you an ignorant man in Anne’s eyes by now but I know deep inside your heart, you still love her. So, don’t lose faith in God. If she is the one for you, you will be reunited. If not, you have to accept what God’s will. I, as a friend, brother and a leader to you especially will not leave your side no matter what.” Yunho comforted Jaejoong and they headed to a nearby deobokgi stall to eat and drink.
Jaejoong understood perfectly what Yunho said just now. He had made a final decision and that was to let Anne go for good. Not because he didn’t love her, but the complicated situation he had to go through in order to be a star. Sacrifices have to be made and he had made that sacrifice for the sake of Anne and himself too. Although deep down inside his heart, he could never forget Anne and her children for as long as he lives. The following week, he tried his very best to ignore Anne’s phone calls and texts. He knew that his actions hurt her but that was the only way he could let her go by making himself looked bad. He also knew that time will heal her wounds and give her another chance to love another man. When TVXQ performed in Japan, he did look for her but from a distance. He watched her pale face trying her best to conceal her broken heart from her children. He had made her cry once again and this time he had no power to comfort her as her boyfriend. This time it is for real.
“Jaejoongie, what are you doing alone? You should be out having fun with the guys. Don’t tell me you’re still thinking about her.” Yunho startled Jaejoong from his thoughts. “ Nope, just thinking about writing a new song, that’s all.” Jaejoong laughed and stared back at the blank sheet on the screen of his laptop. “ Don’t try to fool me, Jaejoongie. I know you’re not over her yet. Come on, let’s go. I don’t want the guys to keep on waiting for you.” Yunho dragged him up from his chair and out of his room. They quickly went downstairs to the lounge where Changmin, Junsu and Yoochun were waiting for them. They did have a couple of drinks before going to bed. Unfortunately, Jaejoong didn’t really into drinking since he met Anne. He just watched the others had fun singing and dancing. Then, he went to bed.
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